This is not an extract from my book. It is what I’m feeling here and now – and written on the spur of the moment.
I can deal with just about everything in life – with the exception of when it comes to the consequences of building a meaningful friendship/relationship with a woman. Communicating via email can cause misunderstandings – and my fear of rejection can cause me to self sabotage the situation (just in case there’s a chance that I could get rejected). I end up hurting myself much worse.
I would like to meet a woman who has the compassion and who understands why I do these things. To build any form of a relationship I need to take baby steps to get to know and trust the person slowly
I’ve met – and been rejected by – so many women over the years – but the pain of rejection never gets any easier every time it happens.
People are inspired by seeing how well I cope with life physically – but they don’t see the emotional pain I endure. It is by far the hardest thing in my life to deal with.
The most basic human emotional is to love, and to be loved – and to share life with someone. This is something and probably someone I have yet to meet.
I prefer trying and not succeeding – than not trying at all to build, the beginning of a strong and meaningful relationship with a lovely woman who inspires me.
Mentally and physically I am very strong but emotionally I’m fragile.
All I would like is to be given the opportunity, to slowly get to know and trust someone special.
I’m only human – and make some mistakes.
